Poetic Fortuity

I chose you It's been a minute since I had a boo so I talked to you  But I had my guard up thinking something was off  Since they always said you're the likable guy But my mind just couldn’t comprehend it, so to me, it was a lie Just sitting and waiting for the other shoe to drop, always on edge Didn't you hear the respectful guys marry off quick or at least are everybody’s first pick, they are at the top of everyone’s list So society has helped me create a jaded lens which is how I see all men it's a sad statement but very true I know I can only trust a few Life, trials, and time have all but worked against you So I pick my fights and take my space manufacturing moments for you to stay away But you were persistent and fought through it all You said your instinct drew you to me Initially, I thought stalker please stay away from me But quickly realized what I would lose  I saw the good dude you had in you So I empowered you,  since that day I learned so much But I found

  Wheeling Freedom My first car in one word meant freedom An understanding of my movements being less limited Asking for a ride here or there I could go as I pleased The independence of riding with my friends to the mall. Laughing, enjoying, and riding with my friends, while plotting on the night ahead Sneaking to my boyfriend’s house nights on end Not having to ask for a ride for tasks mundane Moving through my activities on my own terms Driving for no reason just because I can explore the land Until I understood the cost of gas and mileage slowly became the boss Whether dirt roads, freeway, or driving the city streets, I was always enjoying the drive The one thing I hated was sweltering summer days  because back in those moments the air condition felt ablaze Insurance cost a little high My first used car gave me a sense of pride So, with fond memories, I do still reflect Getting the wrong person to repair you led to your demise The joy that beautiful white heap brought me was an enor

Betrayal this pain which cut so deep wasn't just from the person who assaulted me The knockout was knowing you set me up Was the ultimate betrayal knowing you had that much malice toward me  The action leaving me empty and emotionally scarred Your intentions from the start revealing its part All truths confronted replaced with the desire to just move on Then revenge seem to occupy every second in my mind Being nurtured with care the two of us had a perfect start Until your feelings got old leaving me out in the cold Your true desire shine through no longer am I able to fit your mold This hard external was created my feelings haven't changed your betrayal is all that matters And for it to be in such a deceptive way You broke my spirit a little all on that fateful day

  Scars left Tracing the scars of life  Can take or renew your inner-peace Being reminded of the fights you once held true  Depending on others for happiness  Was a futile mission for sure But looking toward the future I’m forgiving the past You controlled many things only now do I realize Embracing my own truths  No longer shielded by lies  The genuine nature of man  I finally come to surmise For most, it’s about survival  And nothing more than that So who am I too, past judgment? We each earn our second chances So this time, let’s make it grand  

  this pain which cut so deep wasn't just from the person who assaulted me The knockout was knowing you set me up Was the ultimate betrayal knowing you had that much malice toward me  The action leaving me empty and emotionally scarred Your intentions from the start revealing its part All truths confronted replaced with the desire to just move on Then revenge seem to occupy every second in my mind Being nurtured with care the two of us had a perfect start Until your feelings got old leaving me out in the cold Your true desire shine through no longer am I able to fit your mold This hard external was created my feelings haven't changed your betrayal is all that matters And for it to be in such a deceptive way You broke my spirit a little all on that fateful day

today is my reintroduction to the world  I decided that I will no longer hide  I made my decision right or wrong  it was mine to make I say no more apologizes It was my burden to bear,  my tears are gone  I made no mistake it is my testimony  Life is about hiccups and missteps  And learning and growing from them  So again I say Here I am world Even better than yesterday  I start anew never mind yesterday  Through it is changed me a lot  I must move on for what this day has brought is hope and redemption   

 No longer engulfed in a honeymoon chapter the value of our connection depreciating Clearance bounded trying to start a new journey Trying to acquire an eagles view of the direction to proceed Rediscovering myself gave my life meaning I've recommitted to my dreams, desires so pure Through grapevine people whisper about me For growing in confidence  Now more people are attracted to me  

 Uncertainty has paralyzed my past Leaving me immobile for the future pushed into action by fears of dreams left behind Secure in the idea of my possibities Praising who I could be Moving at an astronomical new speed once I believed in my dreams